Wednesday, January 7, 2015

enlightenment

Have I reached enlightenment?

Yes.

I am convinced of it - you will think dear reader that Dash Deringer is lost once more in self -delusions.. That is fine with me - because... wait for it... I don’t care... and it is this lack of caring... this deficiency of concern, of worry, of sympathy for the world and the sheep that fill it... that is... very... very... fucking liberating...

It has been happening for quite a long time now... little by little I began to care less and less until finally I just let go... stopped worrying about the things I have no control over and the people whose opinions mean absolutely nothing to me and began acting and moving with the complete and total intent of making myself happy... now, I have said before and have always told people that I don’t care what others think of me and that one should only worry about one’s own happiness... but I never truly let it all go... until now... I don’t care about your feelings and I don’t want to make your problems mine... in fact I don’t want to know them... I don’t care about your beliefs... your dreams... your hopes and your fears... I don’t give a damn about your politics your religion, and where you stand on issues like faggots, feminism, war... I don’t give two shit’s about your views on left or right - conservative liberal nazi zionist ufo Buddhist new age nationalist socialist fruitcake shit you believe in... I have my own insanity to fill my time with... but  - my time... chasing my dreams, pursuing my goals and running after the things that fulfill my life... and not stopping to care about all the bullshit around me... is freedom... I know what is bullshit the media is trying to sell... it’s all around me... I can look into some one’s eye and tell they have been zombiefide... and are blind to the truth... and I don’t care... I truly and sincerely don’t give a fuck anymore.... and I feel great!!! I’m happy... I haven’t been happy like this since I was a child on Christmas... “live and love like there is no tomorrow” I always say - but fuck!!!! truly do it and not give a damn... if you live like there is no tomorrow... you’re going to chase after the moment... and hold onto that moment for as long as you can... without worries... and you will be happy...

Hold on there my little gypsy samurai’s... I don’t go out of my way to hurt anyone’s feeling... I don’t intentionally set out to piss people off... but I have stopped caring whether the woman I am with has an orgasm or not... I fuck her like it was my last fuck on earth and worry about me... they seem to come back for more... so I will keep acting in this way... Americans are turning into pussies... the western world is following close behind... but those of us who have stumbled upon this little secret of happiness... might be able to save the rest of the world - if we gave a fuck enough too... but I don’t... it would get in the way of my happiness-devil-may-care-vagina conquering-money-making-magic... I am happy!!! so far only my mothers tears have been able to quilt me into giving a fuck... other than that... stop worrying so much and live your life... your way...

Life’s too short for bullshit... build something... write something... paint something... create something and stop worrying and complaining... and mind your own fucking business...

1 comment:

deborahflorence said...

This is a healthy attitude but it sounds like you could use some more of your mother's tears.